Morning Thoughts!
Well I was hoping to sleep late this morning but woke up of course to the rumblings of thunder and lightening. What a great day to sleep or just lie in bed and think. Well here I go again. I didn't want to watch TV so I just decided to turn off the lights and lay there and think and talk to God. While I was lying there I thought of the passage that says to “be still and know I am God”. About that time a big old clap of thunder shook the house. If you think about it that is really a cool way of letting us all know.........hello, I'm out there and I am strong and mighty......can you do this......no, I can. Weather in the natural disasters sense has always puzzled me. Now, here is a loving great God and why does He allow that to happen? I had a preacher explain it to me one time. He said that after things transpired in the Garden of Eden like they did God allowed two things to happen....well actually one, free will was already there. He allowed natural laws to take place. It is still hard to grasp when people are hurt but it still goes back to the fact that He is in control and He has His reasons. I really had to lean on that when a close friend of my daughters died. The little girl was 15, beautiful, full of life, just a great kid and died suddenly with Meningitis. The only thing I could say to try to bring them comfort was she was now walking with the Lord and only He understood why. He could have been saving her from something really bad like a car accident. The mere fact is....only He knows the big picture and the reason.
My second thought for the morning was FEAR! Need to write a song about this one Tina! Last night my 15 year old wanted to go riding around like we used to do when we were teenagers and then go over to her friend’s house. The friend had just gotten her drivers license that day. Now, I love that friend but she has gotten into some trouble in the past. Announced plans just happened so fast.......my daughter walks into my room and says her friends mother had let her take the car out to come over to our house and go for a ride. Now this is something the two of them have been talking about since they were 6 years old. I said okay and then the minute she left a wave of fear came over me. My chest started hurting to the point that it was ridiculous. I was having an anxiety attack. I was all of a sudden scared out of my mind. Now, I don’t do this. I get on stage and talk and sing in front of people. I have to give presentations at work in front of highly intelligent people and yet, I’m freaking out over my daughter leaving the driveway with a child I don’t trust. So, I called my daughter and told her to come back. Then the protesting began. She said that her friend was trying to do better and change her life. Well unfortunately I've heard that line before. Then she got smart and mentioned that God gave second chances and that I should practice what I preach. Hum…….. How dare she use that one on me. Well…… I just decided that that was it. I was not going to let her be around her again until I was convinced that it was okay. So much for turning it over to God huh? Well, here's the thing about that. I thought about it this morning and concluded that we all have fears or as a good psychologist said to me “the feeling that we are not in control”. What I have done in the past of child rearing was to ignore my gut feeling. What I have to learn to do are two things. Number one: turn my fear over to Him. Number 2: LISTEN to what He tells me to do to handle it. Here’s the trick….The way I’ll know if I'm trying to control the situation or if I'm listening to Him is by the way I react. The old Whitney would react in a "Your going to do this because I say so fashion....because I am your mother and I know best" and the truth is that situation still might come to that but first I'm going to try my best to handle things like Christ would. (LOVINGLY). First I will explain my concerns in a loving manner, still demanding a little respect and in the end try to put the monkey on her back. A really good psychologist told me one time when it came to most teenagers, if you offer them a choice, in a very calm quiet manner, they would normally choose the path in which causes them less pain.
So, my sermon for the day is..................................."Keep the Faith"...... He is in charge and as long as we realize that and do His will it's going to be quite a ride............."Hang on, hang on for the ride, let your little light shine, Don't Worry and let go of that FEAR!
Love in Christ!
Whit